The past few weeks I have seen a few old friends and the question that has come time and again has been, "do you miss your job?" It's not the kind of question that I can answer with a quick yes or no. I loved my job. I worked as a school social worker at a middle school ,dealing with all the truant kids. It was fascinating, challenging, entertaining at times, never dull or boring, and I believed in the work I was doing. When I had Blake, I went down to working one day a week. That worked well for the first year after Blake was born but then I got pregnant again and decided to stop working entirely. I thought I would be really traumatized by not working. My job wasn't just a job to me, it was who I was, Amy the social worker, and I was scared to loose my identity.
But I gotta say, staying home full time has been so wonderful and I wouldn't trade it for anything. I am so glad I was able to work for 5 years in my field and I hope to return someday, but for now this is who I am and what I do. Of course I miss the kids and all of the stuff associated with my job but I get to be with MY kids all day and teach them all of the things that I think are important. How great is that? I have 2 little sponges that I get to fill each and every day. Some days, when I want to pull my hair out because my little creatures are driving me bonkers I remind myself that at least I get to be the one with them and not someone else. I think about the alternative of me being gone all day and not getting that time with them and it makes me cringe. And when I look in on them as they sleep I cannot help falling in love all over again no matter how difficult the day has been.
So here's to staying home. Here's to deciding when I want to get dressed each day instead of rushing out the door at 7am. Here's to a life filled with playing outside, changing blow outs, singing the hokey pokey, story time at the library, park days, and reading the same book 100 times a day. :)
p.s. the answer to the question in the last post is 2 years 5 months.